2 Nephi 32

1 AND now, behold, my beloved brethren, I suppose that ye ponder somewhat in your hearts concerning that which ye should do after ye have entered in by the way. But, behold, why do ye ponder these things in your hearts?
2 Do ye not remember that I said unto you that after ye had received the Holy Ghost ye could speak with the tongue of angels? And now, how could ye speak with the tongue of angels save it were by the Holy Ghost?
3 Angels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore, they speak the words of Christ. Wherefore, I said unto you, feast upon the words of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things what ye should do.
4 Wherefore, now after I have spoken these words, if ye cannot understand them it will be because ye ask not, neither do ye knock; wherefore, ye are not brought into the light, but must perish in the dark.
5 For behold, again I say unto you that if ye will enter in by the way, and receive the Holy Ghost, it will show unto you all things what ye should do.
6 Behold, this is the doctrine of Christ, and there will be no more doctrine given until after he shall manifest himself unto you in the flesh. And when he shall manifest himself unto you in the flesh, the things which he shall say unto you shall ye observe to do.
7 And now I, Nephi, cannot say more; the Spirit stoppeth mine utterance, and I am left to mourn because of the unbelief, and the wickedness, and the ignorance, and the stiffneckedness of men; for they will not search knowledge, nor understand great knowledge, when it is given unto them in plainness, even as plain as word can be.
8 And now, my beloved brethren, I perceive that ye ponder still in your hearts; and it grieveth me that I must speak concerning this thing. For if ye would hearken unto the Spirit which teacheth a man to pray ye would know that ye must pray; for the evil spirit teacheth not a man to pray, but teacheth him that he must not pray.
9 But behold, I say unto you that ye must pray always, and not faint; that ye must not perform any thing unto the Lord save in the first place ye shall pray unto the Father in the name of Christ, that he will consecrate thy performance unto thee, that thy performance may be for the welfare of thy soul.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 32:1 - 9)

The scriptures speak volumes to me, perhaps this is why I put off reading them. It may sound silly, but do you ever feel like you're just tired of learning more because the more you study & pray, the more different the world feels (like you're just not a part of it as much?) and then you feel like an outsider, with nowhere to turn, not even church because then you feel like commenting, and people look at you funny, so you keep your mouth shut, and then you are miserable, and then...AARG! Therefore, my scripture reading goes in spurts. I do well until I feel like I'm learning too much, then I back off. Silly me. Maybe someday I'll push through and just learn all I should.

Now, as for these verses, I feel chastised. I've applied to enroll my children in a Montessori school. I've also looked into homeschooling, and did Kindergarten here at home this year with Zach. I keep going back and forth over if I'll actually send them to school. You know what? I have NOT prayed about it. I keep meaning to, and keep putting it off! I'm putting off knowing what to do to best raise my children! Their future is depending on their past, and I'm not seeking inspiration. What am I thinking?!?

I sit and I ponder things, but I don't bring them to God. I wonder what our family's future will be like, but I don't bring it to God. I say trite & trivial things like, "Thanks for a happy day, bless me to get some sleep." AND then I leave out the important stuff that I plague my mind with all day. I should be asking him what to do, putting it in his hands and then pressing forward without worry! So, if you'll excuse me, I'm off to go unload on the Lord, take up HIS yoke, and make my burdens lighter.

Too Long & 2 Nephi 31

Honestly, my husband and I have been reading together in the evenings, so I haven't been taking the time to go verse by verse on here. I should, though. My own thought processes are good for me. It's good to read alone, and think, and decide where I stand, rather than have someone else's input all of the time. Of course, if you are reading with a prayer, I'm sure the Spirit has plenty of input in that "conversation"!

Now, to get myself back on track, I believe I will read a chapter. I owe it to myself, don't I? Plus, it's Christmas time, and where should my mind be centered? Right here. In the scriptures.

4 Wherefore, I would that ye should remember that I have spoken unto you concerning that prophet which the Lord showed unto me, that should baptize the Lamb of God, which should take away the sins of the world.
5 And now, if the Lamb of God, he being holy, should have need to be baptized by water, to fulfil all righteousness, O then, how much more need have we, being unholy, to be baptized, yea, even by water!
6 And now, I would ask of you, my beloved brethren, wherein the Lamb of God did fulfil all righteousness in being baptized by water?
7 Know ye not that he was holy? But notwithstanding he being holy, he showeth unto the children of men that, according to the flesh he humbleth himself before the Father, and witnesseth unto the Father that he would be obedient unto him in keeping his commandments.
8 Wherefore, after he was baptized with water the Holy Ghost descended upon him in the form of a dove.
9 And again, it showeth unto the children of men the straitness of the path, and the narrowness of the gate, by which they should enter, he having set the example before them.
10 And he said unto the children of men: Follow thou me. Wherefore, my beloved brethren, can we follow Jesus save we shall be willing to keep the commandments of the Father?
11 And the Father said: Repent ye, repent ye, and be baptized in the name of my Beloved Son.
12 And also, the voice of the Son came unto me, saying: He that is baptized in my name, to him will the Father give the Holy Ghost, like unto me; wherefore, follow me, and do the things which ye have seen me do.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 31:4 - 12)

This section of scripture is packed full of wonderful question starters for me. And answers.
The first thing that catches my attention is the obvious need for baptism by immersion. I read all too often of how it "just isn't necessary anymore" or "a sprinkling is symbolic". I really don't think it cuts it. Honestly. The scriptures say to follow the Savior, they say he was PURE and not in need of baptism, but was baptized to SHOW US how it is to be done. I don't believe we truly understand all the laws of God (Heaven knows I am confused right now as to how Moses kills a guy, becomes a fugitive, and then is called as a prophet...I have SO many questions to ask when I die), but I think the Christ was pretty explicit in this whole baptism thing. Honestly, if anyone out there can tell me the reasons they don't think they need baptism (by immersion, by someone with priesthood authority)to be saved, I'd love to hear it, because I cannot see it myself when I read the scriptures.

Second. I have a HUGE beef with the whole God & Jesus & the Holy Ghost are the same guy. In the scriptures above, (and in the Bible, since I realize that some reading this may not accept the Book of Mormon as scripture. That's fine, we'll use
15 And Jesus answering said unto him, Suffer it to be so now: for thus it becometh us to fulfil all righteousness. Then he suffered him.
16 And Jesus, when he was baptized, went up straightway out of the water: and, lo, the heavens were opened unto him, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove, and lighting upon him:
17 And lo a voice from heaven, saying, This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased.
(New Testament | Matthew 3:15 - 17))

Is Christ throwing his voice? Descending upon himself? Yes, I know there are scriptures that say that the Father & Son are one, but I've been thinking. There are also scriptures that say that "If ye are not one ye are not mine", but even as we as a people become "one" we do not become a huge being of one mass. I'm still me, you are still you. Jesus is Jesus, Heavenly Father is Heavenly Father.

I must add that this is not something I started believing after being baptized into the LDS church. As a small girl, I had a hard time praying to a "being". I started imaging a loving father that would sit & listen to me. I saw him as separate from Jesus, who I learned of & felt indebted to. When the LDS doctrine was introduced to me, even though I'd been living in a Catholic household, the doctrine of them being three separate, distinct beings was not foreign to me.

This belief also makes it easier for me to pray. I feel heard, if you will. I feel like it is a conversation, not just a floating head dissertation. I'm not giving a soliloquy, I'm talking to my creator--a God who I love.

A Dream

So, this morning, my son came into me with a dream he had. I usually listen half-heartedly (I know, bad mommy), but this morning, I felt very prompted to give him my full attention. Here is what he had to say:
"I had a long dream last night. In my dream superheroes and monsters had to fight. The rule was that if the super heroes won, there would be light, and if the monsters won, there would be dark. The superheroes had to fight with swords, I don't know why. The monsters had to fight with swords, too. At first the superheros were winning, but then the monsters went into a cave and blew it up and rocks came down and the superheroes couldn't get into the cave to fight them. Later, we found that the monsters' plan didn't work, and they had been killed by the cave. There were skulls everywhere. All the monsters, their skulls fell away, but their other parts went to heaven (headless?). All of the superheroes who had died fighting came back to life. It was a happy ending."

I wanted to ask him more, but then he got distracted with acting out a fight scene--he IS five, you know.

2 Nephi 30 & Conference

1 AND now behold, my beloved brethren, I would speak unto you; for I, Nephi, would not suffer that ye should suppose that ye are more righteous than the Gentiles shall be. For behold, except ye shall keep the commandments of God ye shall all likewise perish; and because of the words which have been spoken ye need not suppose that the Gentiles are utterly destroyed.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 30:1)

It's occurred to me at times that often we think we're doing great (or better than others) when it comes to gospel living, when really, we aren't. I am reminded of a plaque my dad had in the house while I was growing up. It said, "It's hard to be humble when you are as great as I am." I'm learning as I go throughout my daily life, meeting people, talking to them, that while I thought I was doing OK at living Christlike standards, that there are many people doing better than I. The funny part is, it is those exact people (who really ARE doing better), that are being humble about it and don't realize they are passing me by like the road runner and Wyle Coyote.

16 Wherefore, the things of all nations shall be made known; yea, all things shall be made known unto the children of men.
17 There is nothing which is secret save it shall be revealed; there is no work of darkness save it shall be made manifest in the light; and there is nothing which is sealed upon the earth save it shall be loosed.
18 Wherefore, all things which have been revealed unto the children of men shall at that day be revealed; and Satan shall have power over the hearts of the children of men no more, for a long time. And now, my beloved brethren, I make an end of my sayings.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 30:16 - 18)

I read this with a lot of hope. Often, I look for more information, I look for signs of new things happening in relation to God, but as I read today, it dawns on me: I don't embrace what already exists. I'm trying to do better. But, I've noticed that even though I've read the scriptures, I don't really know them. I'd like to be able to say I know all the cannonized works. Of course, I also want to keep up on continuing revelation. So, what I'm saying is this: There is a lot to know, and I'm not giving enough of my time to learn what there is. I waste a lot of time. Everyone has 24 hours in a day, and I should be using my time to love, learn, and serve. I know the saying of idleness being of the devil, but I was just thinking that despite the fact that idle hands tend to start doing wickedness (the common interpretation of that scripture), but the remorse you feel after having wasted a day and knowing you cannot get that day back, really, I think, makes you feel a little like what hell must be like--knowing what could have been--only in small doses.

As for conference...it was wonderful. I love that I can now go and read (or listen to) what was said, and enjoy the inspiration of the prophet. The biggest message I got from the past two weeks was: Create. Don't waste time, use it, use it, use it! Use it to serve people. Use it to learn. Use it to get to know God better. Oh, and take care of yourself. A part of L. Tom Perry's talk about Walden pond popped out at me: It's not only OK to exercise and eat well--it's a commandment! Learning to take care of my body is not a luxury, but a necessity. AND as a mother, it is my job to teach my children to do the same, and I'm lacking. I have the knowledge and the support, but my own oomph is missing. Praying for that.

Relief Society General Broadcast

Tonight was what I needed to hear. OK, you hear that all of the time..."They were so inspired!" "It was just what I needed!" People act all excited that the message was "just for them." Usually, there is something for everyone in each conference. At first, I was getting bored. Sorry about the honesty, but I wouldn't feel right saying I was staying awake. But then, something clicked. I heard, "pay attention" and so I did.

Here's what I heard:
Serve at home. Look around! You do not need to look far (your children, your spouse, your neighbor) to find someone to help.

Give your all. The world is too full of people who do "just enough." Excel, whether it be at home making, your calling, your career, parenting...do it well! Give it everything you've got...which leads to...

Take care of yourself, so you have more to give. If you are healthier, your family will be. If you are more spiritual, your family will be. If you're wondering how to help your family excel, excel yourself, and they will follow suit. You are your child's example, and often, your friend's example as well. You'd be surprised how many people you help when you take care of yourself.

Create. Yes, as women, we have the ability to create life (and that is wonderful, and amazing!!), but as humans we all (men and women) have the desire, drive, the responsibility to create something that wasn't there before. Create a smile on a child's face. Create a happy atmosphere. Create a loving response. Create! Start small, and teach yourself how to create with matter unorganized. It doesn't have to be art. Create your life, and do a good job at it.

My favorite quote, and now my new inspiration was (not exact, sorry, but I hope you get the gist): Create an environment the angels would want to visit.

The thought of raising a family in that environment invigorates me.

2 Nephi 28 & 29

7 Yea, and there shall be many which shall say: Eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die; and it shall be well with us.
8 And there shall also be many which shall say: Eat, drink, and be merry; nevertheless, fear God—he will justify in committing a little sin; yea, lie a little, take the advantage of one because of his words, dig a pit for thy neighbor; there is no harm in this; and do all these things, for tomorrow we die; and if it so be that we are guilty, God will beat us with a few stripes, and at last we shall be saved in the kingdom of God.
9 Yea, and there shall be many which shall teach after this manner, false and vain and foolish doctrines, and shall be puffed up in their hearts, and shall seek deep to hide their counsels from the Lord; and their works shall be in the dark.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 28:7 - 9)

Of course, there has to be a little eat, drink & be merry allowed--right? I mean, we as Mormons make it a point to have refreshments at every outing. And, I'm pretty sure that if I planned the Christmas Relief Society social without food, no one would come... Why is that? Seems we can't feed the spirit without at least feeding our tongues (and I will not say that it is to fill tummies, because if it were all lentils & no cheesecake, there wouldn't be a turnout either!)

13 They rob the poor because of their fine sanctuaries; they rob the poor because of their fine clothing; and they persecute the meek and the poor in heart, because in their pride they are puffed up.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 28:13)

I think about this scripture often. And I find conflicting arguments. First, I see here that we should live scarcely, giving any extra to help the poor. But then, the business-person in me says, "Wait! If I hire a gardener & a maid, I'm creating jobs--then these people are working for their $$, and not feeling bad about living off a hand out." The orator in me says, "You can't inspire others if you aren't living an inspirational life, and being poor, sick & sad never inspired anyone." My brain is always left spinning after this inner argument. Any ideas?

21 And others will he pacify, and lull them away into carnal security, that they will say: All is well in Zion; yea, Zion prospereth, all is well—and thus the devil cheateth their souls, and leadeth them away carefully down to hell.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 28:21)

My only consolation here is that it is still evident to me that all is not well in Zion.

24 Therefore, wo be unto him that is at ease in Zion!
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 28:24)

Maybe this is the answer to my prayers. This line. You'd have to know that I'm rarely at ease when considering living in certain western states. My dilemma is that I want to be by family, but I want to raise my children in a place where they will not take the gospel for granted. So, how is this an answer? Well, if wo be unto those at ease there (by this, I'm assuming the physical place of a gathering of many saints being Zion), then I should go there, and be ill-at ease. Yes? No?

3 And because my words shall hiss forth—many of the Gentiles shall say: A Bible! A Bible! We have got a Bible, and there cannot be any more Bible.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 29:3)
Yes, we hear this a lot, do we not? I do, and yet, to use a scripture in the Book of Mormon to prove the Book of Mormon--well, that just doesn't quite work, now does it?

And what thank they the Jews for the Bible which they receive from them? Yea, what do the Gentiles mean? Do they remember the travails, and the labors, and the pains of the Jews, and their diligence unto me, in bringing forth salvation unto the Gentiles?
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 29:4)

Sadly, no. People don't thank the Jews for this...they instead think of the crucifixion, and blame them as wicked people--but that was essential to the plan!

7 Know ye not that there are more nations than one? Know ye not that I, the Lord your God, have created all men, and that I remember those who are upon the isles of the sea; and that I rule in the heavens above and in the earth beneath; and I bring forth my word unto the children of men, yea, even upon all the nations of the earth?
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 29:7)

I love this verse. I often wonder when people will start to realize that the main differences in a lot of religions are merely the names used (names of God, names of ceremonies, names of rites...etc). Yes, there are some beliefs that differ, but, if you study the words of the founders of most religions, you'd see that they all begin similarly, and the differences come about as mankind interprets the words the founder writes/says.

13 And it shall come to pass that the Jews shall have the words of the Nephites, and the Nephites shall have the words of the Jews; and the Nephites and the Jews shall have the words of the lost tribes of Israel; and the lost tribes of Israel shall have the words of the Nephites and the Jews.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 29:13)

Interesting, isn't it? It's like a big puzzle, and we've got to take all of the pieces, all of the revelations, and put them together. No one religion is right by itself, if would seem. Someone, or something, needs to bring them all together, to find the common ground. I suppose that's why it's so easy to feel right about any religion--they are, but they are not complete. I'm not convinced we're complete either...we, as a people, seem to be falling into the same traps. I'll have to ponder this a bit more.

2 Nephi 27

4 For behold, all ye that doeth iniquity, stay yourselves and wonder, for ye shall cry out, and cry; yea, ye shall be drunken but not with wine, ye shall stagger but not with strong drink.
5 For behold, the Lord hath poured out upon you the spirit of deep sleep. For behold, ye have closed your eyes, and ye have rejected the prophets; and your rulers, and the seers hath he covered because of your iniquity.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 27:4 - 5)

So, I'm left wondering: If the Lord puts those who have already rejected the prophets into a deep sleep, will we ever be able to wake them? If not, how do we help them learn of Christ? It would seem they put themselves into this deep sleep, if the Lord's work is really to bring to pass the immortality & eternal life of man. He wouldn't want them to sleep, but to wake up!

I am able to do mine own work;
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 27:20)

The rest of the discussion of how a learned man could not read the plates and how the unlearned man could is interesting. It's testimony building. However, I've pondered those many times before, and finally, today, saw this line. I am able to do mine own work. Really, it seems the Lord is saying here that the efforts we put into bringing this gospel forth are really for our good. He could do it so much better. At this moment, my children are cleaning their rooms. Well, kind of. They have been told to. I really could do it quickly, zip thru, putting stuff where it belongs, tidying up, cleaning, washing the windows...all of it would take me ten minutes. I don't keep much stuff in their rooms. But, it takes them hours (hours of quiet for me because they know that if they come complaining to me about something--like each other--I'll just say, is your room clean?) and this benefits them. It teaches them stewardship. It teaches work before play.
Serving the Lord teaches us stewardship as well. It really is for us.

Also, I was thinking about the law of consecration. I willingly sit in a classroom on Sunday learning from people who are giving of their precious time. In return, rather than pay for the wonderful gospel class, I give service to someone else. It works, if we all try to give our best.

For shall the work say of him that made it, he made me not? Or shall the thing framed say of him that framed it, he had no understanding?
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 27:27)

I was just thinking about how there have been people who have written books & articles about how religion destroys people. That God doesn't know us. I would have to argue. Perhaps it is that we do not know ourselves. Our potential. Our worth. What he wants us to learn. What we are capable of. So much that mankind does not know, that God does.

But, there is hope, as is added here in verse 35:
35 They also that erred in spirit shall come to understanding, and they that murmured shall learn doctrine.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 27:35)

We will learn. He is understanding. Just like I know my children do not understand why they must help clean. They do not like it. But I know they will learn, and I will wait until it sinks in. It may take a long time, but it will come.

Gee, I learn so much by parenting. It's wonderful to have a new perspective.

2 Nephi 26

5 And they that kill the prophets, and the saints, the depths of the earth shall swallow them up, saith the Lord of Hosts; and mountains shall cover them, and whirlwinds shall carry them away, and buildings shall fall upon them and crush them to pieces and grind them to powder.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 26:5)

I read this, thinking...the prophets were so graphic in their writings...crushing, screaming, blood, etc. And we worry about violence in our children's literature? Yet we should teach our children the scriptures. Here's the thing, I know that studies have shown that when violence is written we cope with it much differently than when it is on TV, or in a game, so I've been a little more lax in what we read, meaning, I don't cover up what happened in the scriptures. And we talk about it. I think that is the key point: We talk about it. The kids are not left to wonder what I think, or if what they feel is right or wrong. We discuss. Two way communication.

24 He doeth not anything save it be for the benefit of the world; for he loveth the world, even that he layeth down his own life that he may draw all men unto him. Wherefore, he commandeth none that they shall not partake of his salvation.
25 Behold, doth he cry unto any, saying: Depart from me? Behold, I say unto you, Nay; but he saith: Come unto me all ye ends of the earth, buy milk and honey, without money and without price.
26 Behold, hath he commanded any that they should depart out of the synagogues, or out of the houses of worship? Behold, I say unto you, Nay.
27 Hath he commanded any that they should not partake of his salvation? Behold I say unto you, Nay; but he hath given it free for all men; and he hath commanded his people that they should persuade all men to repentance.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 26:24 - 27) (my emphasis added)

This scripture is quoted to me sometimes by those who were once members, saying that those of us who are active need to be more accepting. Usually, I concede (because, well, we do) BUT after reading the italicized part, I realized something. We may be accepting, but it is still everyone's job to encourage people to repent, and telling someone that they need to repent is never seen as being accepting, even if you don't feel un-accepting toward them. Someone may love you, but do you really feel loved when they tell you that there are things that need to change? Not usually at the moment, and that is when pride takes over. Do you stop and think about what they've said, or do you get angry and tell them they are just a biased "saint" who is holier than thou and needs to get off your back? Hmmm? I used to do the latter. But it's making me think, reading this. Guess this is why we get to read regularly, eh?

Wherefore, if they should have charity they would not suffer the laborer in Zion to perish.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 26:30)

So, politically, how do we solve this problem? If we tax the businesses, to give more to the poor, the businesses do worse, making fewer jobs available, so then there are more poor. If we don't and business folk get greedy, then there are more jobs, but less income. If we set a higher minimum wage, then all wages go up, and then so do prices. Arrrg! I really don't think this is a solvable problem. At least not within our finite minds. Am I giving up on our civiliazation? No, I hope we survive, but I've been thinking...most big civilizations only lasted a few hundred years as they entered the pride cycle.

that they should not contend one with another;
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 26:32)
President Monson spoke of contention today. I was glad he did, because I'd been feeling a lot of it toward my neighbors who were voting opposite me. A lot of comments come up about politics this time of year, and it is always a sore spot. I need to calm my inner self. I need to realize that they have every right to a different point of view, and not snap back at them when they say that only stupid people are conservative. I need to take the higher road, and be my educated self, with my educated opinions and do my best, even if we disagree. It is so hard. Hard to be kind to friends who have different points of view. But I must, or else, will I have friends?

2 Nephi 25

Ok, yes, I did read the other chapters, but, honestly, did not have much to say. More war, more destruction, Isaiah..I'm still working on understanding him. Which is why I found humor in this line:
For behold, Isaiah spake many things which were hard for many of my people to understand; for they know not concerning the manner of prophesying among the Jews.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 25:1)

Yeah, Nephi hit the nail on the head. Isaiah spoke many things my people don't understand either. I wonder if it would make more sense if I did understand the Jews better (from that time era). I've never been big on studying history, but I do want to have it be an important part of my children's education. I can't explain why, but I'm driven to teach them the history of this world, and our people. I want them to have a better grasp of people than I do. I believe studying history and religions, and writings of different times is a great way to understand mankind in general. Here's hoping I'm right.

for because the words of Isaiah are not plain unto you, nevertheless they are plain unto all those that are filled with the spirit of prophecy. But I give unto you a prophecy, according to the spirit which is in me; wherefore I shall prophesy according to the plainness which hath been with me from the time that I came out from Jerusalem with my father; for behold, my soul delighteth in plainness unto my people, that they may learn.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 25:4)

This spirit of prophecy. I wonder if it is a gift attainable. to understand what is to come. See...here is my next argument though. Often, when people mention that there were prophetesses in the bible, it is explained away as a prophet is someone who testifies of Christ. Well, that's all fine and dandy, but this also says that prophecy allows you to understand Isaiah, and of the things to come based on the writings of the scripture and inspiration. So, ummm, do we scratch that limited definition from our Sunday school manuals and use more than one scripture to answer the question?

and according to my prophecy they have been destroyed, save it be those which are carried away captive into Babylon.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 25:10)

See? According to my prophecy, they have been destroyed, not according to my ability to see or reveal. Semantics? Yes. But are we then using semantics in sunday school to discourage people from prophecying?

20 And now, my brethren, I have spoken plainly that ye cannot err. And as the Lord God liveth that brought Israel up out of the land of Egypt, and gave unto Moses power that he should heal the nations after they had been bitten by the poisonous serpents, if they would cast their eyes unto the serpent which he did raise up before them, and also gave him power that he should smite the rock and the water should come forth; yea, behold I say unto you, that as these things are true, and as the Lord God liveth, there is none other name given under heaven save it be this Jesus Christ, of which I have spoken, whereby man can be saved.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 25:20)

No comment here, really. It is plain. Belief in the Savior is paramount. Everything else falls by the wayside. It's simple, but we make it so hard.

23 For we labor diligently to write, to persuade our children, and also our brethren, to believe in Christ, and to be reconciled to God; for we know that it is by grace that we are saved, after all we can do.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 25:23)

I wonder, though, how diligent are we here at home? Am I doing all I can do to help my children understand grace? Or justice? It's a hard balance within the home, being consistent and kind. Not the easiest task. But then, easy is never the best way, is it? Or sometimes, we think the easier way looks like more work, but then we make more work for ourselves by doing it our way. We think we are right, but then we have to redo...but that is what we are here to learn. Someday, I'll be wise enough to let myself learn from others, instead of having to make all the mistakes myself!!

26 And we talk of Christ, we rejoice in Christ, we preach of Christ, we prophesy of Christ, and we write according to our prophecies, that our children may know to what source they may look for a remission of their sins.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 25:26)

Rejoice!! Yes, that is key. I hope my children feel joy through the Savior, not a bunch of laws. I want them to see the joy that is possible, and to feel it. Do they feel it here? I'm not always sure, but that is something I'm adding to the goal list...to rejoice.
27 Wherefore, we speak concerning the law that our children may know the deadness of the law; and they, by knowing the deadness of the law, may look forward unto that life which is in Christ, and know for what end the law was given. And after the law is fulfilled in Christ, that they need not harden their hearts against him when the law ought to be done away.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 25:27)

This scripture is a good one for those who are upset about past commandments that don't apply anymore (times change, God does give us different laws for different times, but not because he wants a different outcome, but because times change and he wants the same outcome.)
Let me rephrase that:
When you are in a different situation, but want to accomplish the same goals, you have to make adjustments based on the situation to get to the same place.
Differently:
If you are in California, but want to get to Idaho, you drive east, if you are in Indiana and want to get to Idaho, you drive west. Same goal, but different time and place, so different action required, hence, God't law changes, but not his goals.

2 Nephi 22

1 AND in that day thou shalt say: O Lord, I will praise thee; though thou wast angry with me thine anger is turned away, and thou comfortedest me.
2 Behold, God is my salvation; I will trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord JEHOVAH is my strength and my song; he also has become my salvation.
3 Therefore, with joy shall ye draw water out of the wells of salvation.
4 And in that day shall ye say: Praise the Lord, call upon his name, declare his doings among the people, make mention that his name is exalted.
5 Sing unto the Lord; for he hath done excellent things; this is known in all the earth.
6 Cry out and shout, thou inhabitant of Zion; for great is the Holy One of Israel in the midst of thee.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 22:1 - 6)

A short chapter (yup, that's all of it) but so much more joyful than the others. After all the bad stuff comes the good stuff...reminds me of a sister at church who said that the last days are like transition in labor, but you can make it because you stay focused on seeing that new baby...and that's the good stuff.

About that topic...Stephen asked me what I would say to a woman who had a baby, who had great career prospects, and who was torn between staying home & working. I've been thinking about that, and thought I'd write it down, for my own sake--because sometimes I need to hear my own advice.

First, let me clarify: I went to college, I did finish with a very employable degree in human resource management, with honors. Some people I meet assume that because I'm not working, I'm uneducated, not so. I may sing Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star in a high pitched voice with hand actions, but that is for the sake of my kids...not who I am all of the time. When I first started this "Mom Journey" I sang songs like The Battle Hymn of the Republic, The Star Spangled Banner, and Vogue (yes, by Madonna). I'm not well traveled, though I desire to be...but I don't desire it right now. My kids are little (5, 3, 0) and I want to be home. I'd take them, but grocery shopping with them is hard enough...let alone touring Europe or Africa.

So...what would I say to someone who is in the position I was 5 years ago, knowing what I know now?
It's not easy. That sounds cliche, I know, but I really thought it would be easier than working and having kids. I did the whole work, finish school, get sitter thing with Z up until he was 6 months old. It was hard. Yikes! I slept very little, and wanted to see him more than anything. I chose to stay home after that...
However, it was harder! Aaaack! There was no one to answer to, no schedule to keep to (unless I make one), and no one to hand the baby off to when I just couldn't take it any more (before I had a very reliable sitter who would take him even if I was home & needed to get something done).

I have a lot I'd love to say more, but at the moment, the kids are all occupied, and there is much to be done in this home (home maker, remember?). I'd just add that you shouldn't go into it with rose colored lenses. It's going to be a struggle. BUT, the struggles will be worth it (they have been so far), dinner around the table will be attainable, a clean floor will happen once in awhile (yes, not all the time, sad, I know), bottles of shampoo will be dumped, plants over turned, toys stepped on, books read, hugs given, long days spent at the park, or zoo, needing a shower but not getting one, wishing for a nap--and not getting one, it all happens.

Now, off to make my little sanctuary (my bedroom) look like it might belong to an adult.

2 Nephi 20 & 21.

33 Behold, the Lord, the Lord of Hosts shall lop the bough with terror; and the high ones of stature shall be hewn down; and the haughty shall be humbled.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 20:33)

You know, despite how much I love my kids, I can't help but think that the Lord could accomplish this with a few two-year olds. Thank heavens I don't have any of those right now! Give me 18 months.

6 The wolf also shall dwell with the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid, and the calf and the young lion and fatling together; and a little child shall lead them.
7 And the cow and the bear shall feed; their young ones shall lie down together; and the lion shall eat straw like the ox.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 21:6 - 7)

This reminded me of the grocery store today. Why? Well, after our much bounteous harvest, I thought I'd go to the butcher block & get some meat to accompany our meals. I stood there feeling ill. I couldn't do it. Eggs don't bother me, nor does milk or honey, but staring at all that meat made me feel sick. I wasn't the only one...my daughter who was standing by me said, "Mommy, I feel like I'm gonna throw up." And we hadn't even eaten anything yucky that day...just some oranges & granola. Or, maybe it wasn't just the meat...maybe it was being in a grocery store, because after having bought local for awhile (thus not having to go to the store...yay!) I couldn't even stand the produce section. Z--my son, asked for apples...I told him he'd have to wait til they were in season & we got them from the farm. When we move, it'll have to be in a time of year that allows us to plant when we get there, so there won't be a lot of grocery shopping...but then, you have to settle in first, right?

13 The envy of Ephraim also shall depart, and the adversaries of Judah shall be cut off; Ephraim shall not envy Judah, and Judah shall not vex Ephraim.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 21:13)

So, supposedly, the tribes of Ephraim & Judah are not getting along right now...

Off to learn about the ocean...kids time.

2 Nephi 19, 1/2 of 20.

Ha! A week hasn't passed this time.

3 Thou hast multiplied the nation, and increased the joy—they joy before thee according to the joy in harvest, and as men rejoice when they divide the spoil.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 19:3)

I cam honestly say I've felt this now. As we work weekly diligently, together at our CSA , and we pull in load after load of fresh food, and divide it among the families that have worked with us, there is a feeling there...a camaraderie, a joy, what it is exactly, I can't explain, but it makes the labor worth it. Perhaps someday I'll feel that same feeling when my husband runs off to church meetings--making the sacrifice worth it. I'm still waiting for that feeling, until then, CSA here I come.

4 For thou hast broken the yoke of his burden, and the staff of his shoulder, the rod of his oppressor.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 19:4)

Maybe that feeling makes the work seem lighter, faster...

I won't pretend to understand the rest of the chapter. I read it, I see that it says that basically all man kind will be destroyed. Seems a little morbid. When it says 16 For the leaders of this people cause them to err; and they that are led of them are destroyed.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 19:16)

It argues with what I've heard taught in the past. Usually, you hear that leaders (gov't officials, parents, church leaders) who lead folks astray will pay for crimes of those they led, but this says they that are led will be destroyed. So, really, who do you follow? I mean, this really is a tougher question than we give credence to...those who are being led usually really believe what they are being taught, I mean...people die for what they are taught, and sometimes it isn't the truth--but they believe it is. It IS the truth to them, just as what I feel is the truth to me...so who is astray? In Sunday school, we said to pray about it, but you know what? Other people pray, too, and they get their answers, which are sometimes contrary to what answers I get, about the same topic.

20 And he shall snatch on the right hand and be hungry; and he shall eat on the left hand and they shall not be satisfied; they shall eat every man the flesh of his own arm—
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 19:20)

Here, I must have been feeling a need for humor after all the depressing verses, because even though this is gross, I could only picture my baby sucking on her fore arm, even after having a bottle. She nurses, gets solids & a bottle & then still needs something in her mouth, often a toe, or an arm...I suppose we could say she is fulfilling prophecy.

1 WO unto them that decree unrighteous decrees, and that write grievousness which they have prescribed;
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 20:1)

Hmmm, should I retract that last statement about the prophecy? No, really, I don't think God lacks a sense of humor...he couldn't, he'd go insane.

6 I will send him against a hypocritical nation,
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 20:6)

In God we trust...yet he is allowed nowhere. Hypocritical nation anyone?

15 Shall the ax boast itself against him that heweth therewith? Shall the saw magnify itself against him that shaketh it? As if the rod should shake itself against them that lift it up, or as if the staff should lift up itself as if it were no wood!
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 20:15)

This is a good verse about recognizing the Lord in our accomplishments. Not just our worldly accomplishments either. I just read a paper about the high number of women taking Prozac who are LDS. It talked of the stresses of not conforming, of others not understanding when you choose not to conform. I think the BIGGEST reason we have this problem (in our religion) is the habit we have of forgetting that WE can't do it. We will not be perfect, the men who lead us will not be perfect (yes, they will have their own biases, faults & flaws...they are human), no mother will be perfect, no father will be perfect BUT we have the potential to become such--however, I think that potential is only achieved once Christ comes into play. Instead of worrying if we are being the perfect parents, we need only do our best, I really believe God will make up the rest...maybe an eternity from now. Maybe some of his teachings won't really come into play in the next life, but we needed the discipline now. For example, my kids won't have to go to bed at 8 when they are adults, but it is a rule now, that I expect them to follow. I also expect them to sit quietly when sent to time out, but there really isn't a "time out" for adults (unless you count jail...), but it is followed now. Maybe there won't be the same rules in heaven as we have here--I think of myself as a spiritual toddler. Maybe there won't really be polygamy in heaven (I really doubt there will be, actually), or maybe we'll find out that a lot of our rules (like the word of wisdom...which is quite wise, however) were just to see if we'd obey, or so we'd learn to obey because it's tough there. Ever heard of boot camp? They are HARD on you, but then you pass and are better off for it, and you might need what you learned in a war.

God is a mystery, I can't explain his ways with facts, or reasoning, sometimes even scripture contradicts itself BUT I cannot deny that there is a God--A Father, A Son & A Holy Ghost...three separate beings, who via prayer I can honestly say I've conversed with and felt the presence of. Right now, I'm a member of the only church I know of that teaches me that they are three distinct beings, and the only church that answers the biblical question "else why are they baptized for the dead?" Yes BIBLICAL. I'm tired of reading stuff that says that because it wasn't in the Book of Mormon, Joseph Smith made it up ...and this coming from other Christians! Read your BIBLE:
29 Else what shall they do which are baptized for the dead, if the dead rise not at all? why are they then baptized for the dead?
(New Testament | 1 Corinthians 15:29)

2 Nephi 18

Did a week really pass already? Wow. This week I started teaching basic arithmetic to the kids, since we already "read" regularly. Now, if I could remind myself to read for my benefit as well as theirs, I'd have something going! Anyhow, onto what I came here to do: learn about God.

3 And I went unto the prophetess; and she conceived and bare a son. Then said the Lord to me: Call his name, Maher-shalal-hash-baz.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 18:3)

Correct me if I'm wrong (please!), but is Isaiah here saying that he is the father of Maher-shalal-hash-baz? Say that ten times fast. Whew! Throughout Isaiah, he does talk of his wife as being his prophetess (I love that, so different from the words of Paul...what was his problem? Someday, I hope to find out that Paul's words were misunderstood, or not translated correctly...most of the time I feel he is a bigot, and too many women & children have suffered at the hands of their husbands because of his words--I still keep hoping they weren't his words. Luckily, modern day prophets have pointed out the words that contradict such teachings, and my husband has figured out the worth of a companion, not a servant. I love that man. Stephen, you are the best! You'd make millions if you taught men how to treat their wives.)

11 For the Lord spake thus to me with a strong hand, and instructed me that I should not walk in the way of this people, saying:
12 Say ye not, A confederacy, to all to whom this people shall say, A confederacy; neither fear ye their fear, nor be afraid.
13 Sanctify the Lord of Hosts himself, and let him be your fear, and let him be your dread.
14 And he shall be for a sanctuary; but for a stone of stumbling, and for a rock of offense to both the houses of Israel, for a gin and a snare to the inhabitants of Jerusalem.
15 And many among them shall stumble and fall, and be broken, and be snared, and be taken.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 18:11 - 15)

I read this thinking of our little family. I'm often tempted to do other than what I am commanded to do with my children. For example, after much prayer, I really feel like I need to home school. When I study, I feel the same, but then it feels like the criticism of friends has a much stronger hold than the words of God, at times. Which is why I must repeatedly return to the scriptures and keep myself on this path. I know it will be hard. There's no doubt in my mind...I'm being given an obvious parenting stumbling block BUT I believe we will learn so much as a family, and grow so much as people, that we will not regret taking the path less traveled. Ahhh, Robert Frost (1915):
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Now, I must add here that the decisions I come to for my family are not necessarily in any way the perfect solution for another, and as times change, what is perfect for our family may change as well. We really all need to turn to God & let him guide our path, putting our opinions & wishes for ease at bay. I frequently think to myself that our home would be cleaner, our lives more simple if we just put the kids in school, or maybe I could rest more & not care so much about the house and just enjoy them...but I keep feeling there has to be a balance I have yet to find, one where I'm not so tired & I feel like I accomplished something. It's an odd feeling to be excited about a clean floor, but I am to that point. BUT, as I read my favorite book of scripture, Proverbs, I determined that there must be more to life than clean...
4 Where no oxen are, the crib is clean: but much increase is by the strength of the ox.
(Old Testament | Proverbs 14:4)

Let's rephrase that:
Where no children are, the house is clean: but much increase (in spirituality, love, knowledge) is by the presence of the children. I feel justified in this rephrase, as it follows this verse:

1 EVERY wise woman buildeth her house: but the foolish plucketh it down with her hands.
(Old Testament | Proverbs 14:1)

I've also been wondering how I could answer to someone when they question my family's decision to home school. I often feel put on the spot, because I don't want to offend them by saying that I don't think public school is good enough (since obviously, they do), and I don't want to belittle my decision, either. It's important to me that my children know that I'm as convinced of my actions as I say I am, and how can I show them this if I downplay our decision when others ask (in front of them?). As I read in chapter 18 (of 2 Nephi) today, I came up with my answer.

"I home school because I feel guided by the Lord that it is the right thing for my family to do. No literature, for or against keeping my children at home will change that conviction. When the Lord asks me to do something I know he will provide a way to do so, even if it pushes me to my limits. If he happens lead our family in another direction in the future, then we will go, but with the spirit of obedience--not of arrogance that our way is better, or with shame that our way is odd, but pure, humble obedience."
OK, so I won't give that whole speech each time I'm asked, but you get the gist.

Reading Detour...oh, and 2 Nephi 17

I have been studying. But, not what I set out to study. No, I've been studying how to better put our finances in order. Not that there's much to juggle with right now, but that is the point. I'd been reading that God gives us little amounts of things to see how we do with it, then if we are wise and do well, he may give us more (trials, resources, blessings, whatever), and I was reading the parable of the talents. I decided that I really hadn't mastered living with what I already had. I suppose some people say that the only way for things to work out is to get more, but I'm beginning to disagree. As I have been studying on how to be a wise steward, and putting ideas to use, despite the lack of increase in means, I feel we have been much more balanced and have done quite well. Not only do I refer to monetary means, but time as well. How to be a steward over the time that God has given me on this earth. We all pretty much get the same 24 hours in a day. We really do choose what to do with it. I used to think that my day was so filled with hours of child rearing that I didn't have time to do other things (clean, exercise, etc.), but then I realized that first, even if that was the case I couldn't whine because I am the one who decided to invite those children to take of my time, and second, they are really well behaved children, who, if I asked them to read quietly while I used the treadmill--would. They would also welcome a jaunt to the park, or even the chance to help mommy clean up a bit. So, my excuses were null & void the moment they left my lips. Especially given how great my kids are.

I'm reading a few things that have been really beneficial to me, and I must recommend:
Take Back Your Time
The Richest Man In Babylon
It's All TOO MUCH!

I must say, it's been an adventure. So, now, on to my scripture study.

And his heart was moved, and the heart of his people, as the trees of the wood are moved with the wind.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 17:2)

How poetic! I love the words of Isaiah even if they are hard to understand sometimes. But, how could you not love this line?

And he said: Hear ye now, O house of David; is it a small thing for you to weary men, but will ye weary my God also?
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 17:13)

I read this after a particularly long day with the children...weary? Yes, I suppose I was. Didn't mean I loved them any less. Lines like this make me wonder how people can think that God does not have human traits...
I believe whole heartedly that he really does have a body of flesh & bone, that he is literally my first father, that he loves me, and wants me to progress until I know all that he knows. I believe he gets tired, I believe that sometimes, he lets us have our way even when it is not good for us, just like I give in to my children when they beg for a treat at the end of a long day. I take the scriptures very literally when they say that the Lord was wearied by his children. How could he not be? Look at us! Watch the news...wouldn't you be thrashed if your kids were at war? I believe he hates it when we fight in the name of religion, mainly because it's all semantics. The Golden Rule, The Ten commandments, karma...they all boil down to the same thing. Allah, God, Yaweh, Heavenly Father...it's still him. We're fighting these religious fights over words. We're killing over words. It'd be like me killing you for saying azure instead of blue. Nuts!

Behold, a virgin shall conceive, and shall bear a son, and shall call his name Immanuel.
15 Butter and honey shall he eat, that he may know to refuse the evil and to choose the good.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 17:14 - 15)

Heh, don't show my kids this scripture, they will say it's a testament against turnips. I almost think my husband would agree...
No, but really, on the side of raising children, this scripture reminds me of a quote by a religious guy I enjoy reading:
"Loving people live in a loving world. Hostile people live in a hostile world. But it's the same world. How come?" Dr. Wayne Dyer

2 Nephi 14, 15 & 16

1 AND in that day, seven women shall take hold of one man, saying: We will eat our own bread, and wear our own apparel; only let us be called by thy name to take away our reproach.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 14:1)

The world would have to change quite a bit to get women to feel like they "need" to be married. It seems to have gone by the wayside. Which is sad...not just from the lonely individual's point of view either. A good working marriage, where the couple delineates their roles, cooperates constantly, and looks out for the other members of the family moreso than self, can create a productive, peaceful society. This doesn't mean that mom (or dad) is wiped out in caring for everyone in the family...because while she (or he) is giving her all, the other members are helping just as worried about her as she is about them.

Now, this is off topic from the scripture itself, but...
I spent today washing the curtains & rehanging them. It'd been awhile. Now, the house smells clean, because the curtains aren't dusty. Nice. These are things that didn't happen while I was working (pre baby even!), so, I can't imagine how someone can do these simple, yet important things if they are working & have children. Maybe they don't sleep, or eat, or have any down time. This would be hard for me. Plus, I would have missed a moment today that is now golden...tucked away in my mind for years to come. My son read the Christmas story (biblical version, not the one on HBO) to his sisters and I today, and when he ended he said, "C, how did that make you feel inside? Do you feel that good feeling when I read about Jesus?"
"Yes, I do, " says C.
"Heavenly Father & Jesus love us, C. Yay for that! You know what? I think I love them, too."
"Yup," says C.

Now, on to the scriptures I was reading...
5 And the Lord will create upon every dwelling–place of mount Zion, and upon her assemblies, a cloud and smoke by day and the shining of a flaming fire by night; for upon all the glory of Zion shall be a defence.
6 And there shall be a tabernacle for a shadow in the daytime from the heat, and for a place of refuge, and a covert from storm and from rain.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 14:5 - 6)

A defense from what? Maybe I'm missing something here, but I thought this was after Christ came, and judgement was passed...so what do we need defense from?

8 Wo unto them that join house to house, till there can be no place, that they may be placed alone in the midst of the earth!
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 15:8)

Ha, off topic, but this made me think--get a house, even a small one where your family can be alone...no more apartments! No offense to apartment dwellers, I may even have to again someday, but that's what it made me think of.

That say: Let him make speed, hasten his work, that we may see it;
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 15:19)
Ahem. So, I truly sin in my wishes that the end would just come, that I can finally understand all things.

that put bitter for sweet, and sweet for bitter!
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 15:20)
Don't mess with the baked goods! Kidding.

26 And he will lift up an ensign to the nations from far, and will hiss unto them from the end of the earth; and behold, they shall come with speed swiftly; none shall be weary nor stumble among them.
27 None shall slumber nor sleep; neither shall the girdle of their loins be loosed, nor the latchet of their shoes be broken;
28 Whose arrows shall be sharp, and all their bows bent, and their horses' hoofs shall be counted like flint, and their wheels like a whirlwind, their roaring like a lion.
29 They shall roar like young lions; yea, they shall roar, and lay hold of the prey, and shall carry away safe, and none shall deliver.
30 And in that day they shall roar against them like the roaring of the sea; and if they look unto the land, behold, darkness and sorrow, and the light is darkened in the heavens thereof.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 15:26 - 30)

These verses seem very important to me, like I'm missing something, but I don't know what.

In 16, Isaiah sees God, and the seraphims that surround his throne. I decided to get to know what a seraphim was a little better. So, I googled "seraphim" and found first, some beautiful artwork of other's perception of what this 6-winged angel must look like. I also found an explanation that if you go through the bible, there are multiple types of angels mentioned, and it would seem that the seraphim are at the top of the hierarchy.

Oddly, however, if you look up the Hebrew translation of this verse, you would see the word saraph (saw-rawf'), which translates to: burning, i.e. (figuratively) poisonous (serpent); specifically, a saraph or symbolical creature (from their copper color) -- fiery (serpent), seraph.

So, had I read this without seeing the illustrations, I would have imagined a six-winged serpent of copper coloring. Which then led me to wonder about Satan being called the serpent (fiery serpent, no less) in the bible...

2 Nephi 12

OK, first, I'm looking for an accurate citation. I've heard that the word "Utah" means "top of the mountains" in the Ute language, but can't find a reference (other than other folks just saying so, I'm open to posts here!!)

4 And he shall judge among the nations, and shall rebuke many people: and they shall beat their swords into plow-shares, and their spears into pruning-hooks—nation shall not lift up sword against nation, neither shall they learn war any more.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 12:4)

I keep wishing for this day. But, I'm not convinced it'll happen in my lifetime. It feels like we have so far to go before we've accomplished enough. And yet, I'm hopeful that because I don't expect it, it will come BECAUSE we don't expect it...get what I mean?

22 Cease ye from man, whose breath is in his nostrils; for wherein is he to be accounted of?
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 12:22)

I'm not sure why I keep having to be reminded...I can pray and get answers, I don't need to search every man's opinion. It seems everytime I start reading the scriptures again, I get a strong impression to homeschool following my heart, meaning to not pick a set curriculum but to pick and choose prayerfully what each child will need to learn and experience. Yet, then I get nervous & I start reading every homeschooling book & then I get confused because everyone has a different theory, then I pray about which one I should use, and I get that strong impression to leave it alone & just go with the flow. I'll learn someday, I know I will. God must get so annoyed & frustrated with me sometimes. I'm just like my kids--I either dilly dally or out right defy. I keep pleading, "please obey, it is for the best!" and God keeps pleading, "please obey, it is for the best!" I will learn.

4 And I will give children unto them to be their princes, and babes shall rule over them.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 13:4)

Personally, I can see this happening. It's about time kids got the upper hand. They are so great at not making an exception (if sugar isn't good for us, why do we eat it ater dinner? if we have to try something until we like it, you should, too...even if it is sprinkles--aren't you teaching us to like everything?)

5 And the people shall be oppressed, every one by another, and every one by his neighbor; the child shall behave himself proudly against the ancient, and the base against the honorable.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 13:5)

This is occuring already. Neighbors afraid of each other, or afraid to be themselves based on what a neighbor might think. Children lacking respect for their elders, making fun of the elderly. Those who are, well, base, are definitely not respecting those who deserve it. It seems disrespect is everywhere. Manners are a thing of the past, the media bashes on almost anyform of leadership, people stop caring because they think all leaders are corrupt...I could go on, but I won't.

12 And my people, children are their oppressors, and women rule over them.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 13:12)
Oh America, America. I feel like I could put America in place of Jerusalem and it would fit in Isaiah. I probably should expound here, but I lack time (kids & dinner call).

2 Nephi 11 Questions

For me, the scriptures always make me ask more questions than they give me answers for. I told Stephen once that I may just be a better Christian when I'm not studying the scriptures & I just work to be nice. Anyhow, a question that came up for me today while reading was this:
If
3 And my brother, Jacob, also has seen him as I have seen him; wherefore, I will send their words forth unto my children to prove unto them that my words are true. Wherefore, by the words of three, God hath said, I will establish my word. Nevertheless, God sendeth more witnesses, and he proveth all his words.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 11:3)

is true, does the fact that there are many witnesses against religion negate the three or more witnesses in favor?

I'm not trying to play devil's advocate here, really. I'm just curious as to how you know truth if there are evidently witnesses on both sides. My gut tells me it all boils down to the spirit...but then, why do different people get different answers?

7 For if there be no Christ there be no God; and if there be no God we are not, for there could have been no creation.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 11:7)

I read this line in faith...(and it makes me wonder why evangelicals are against the LDS religion...perhaps they haven't read the Book of Mormon?), but I fail to see how you could prove the importance of faith in Christ via this statement...it seems to me the faith must be in the whole picture at once, one part cannot really prove another. The whole story either has to be real, or not. Telling someone they exist because of Christ, when they already believe they were part of primordial soup does very little to convince them of the atonement. Just my two cents.

2 Nephi 10

Wherefore, as I said unto you, it must needs be expedient that Christ—for in the last night the angel spake unto me that this should be his name—should come among the Jews, among those who are the more wicked part of the world; and they shall crucify him—for thus it behooveth our God, and there is none other nation on earth that would crucify their God.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 10:3)

I started to wonder...it seems as though the Lord knew who would be evil enough to crucify Christ. He knew that the suffering would occur, it was basically a set-up (kind of like the garden of Eden). I know we hear often that God isn't a micro-manager, but the more I read, the more I wonder...are we sure he isn't setting up misery? Now, I'm not saying that it is because he is a mean and hateful God. Actually, I started thinking about boot camp. Personally, I've never attended, but my parents both have. They tell me stories about how mean and nasty it gets, how your literally getting your spirit broken, only to have it built back up, as a team, with the ability to get through anything. I started thinking about the pioneers, who had much physical suffering, yet those who survived flourished in the desert valley they settled. I thought of the horrible stories anti-mormons use to persuade members to fall away, true stories, but told via a slant of "evil men are in your midst, you must drop back" kind of way. Yet, it seems evil men were necessary for Christ to be crucified. Horrible occurences may have been /are necessary to try the faith and physical and mental ability of the human beings that may someday live with God again. Maybe there is so much more to "getting to heaven" than we can comprehend, that we don't see how trials might be a good thing. I'm definitely not saying that I don't feel sick to my stomach when I think of the suffering of individuals, and I'm also not saying that we should not pitch in to help each other. In fact, I think we should help each other...maybe that is the building us back up as a team part of heavenly boot camp.

23 Therefore, cheer up your hearts, and remember that ye are free to act for yourselves—to choose the way of everlasting death or the way of eternal life.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 10:23)

Ahhh, agency. It's funny when I read about folks complaining about their lack of agency because they are LDS. However, it's pretty explicit in the scriptures that your choices are not without consequence. Do people really think that they can do WHATEVER they want and not have to worry about anything? Not counting the physical limitations of doing whatever you want (addiction, unwanted pregnancy, broken homes), can you imagine a God putting a creation on earth and not giving any guidelines? Better yet, can you think of instances when parents allow children to run free with no rules? In the long run, those are the children suffering from depression, wondering if their parents loved them. Same with those who have been taught that if God loved us, he would let us have our way all the time...we start to wonder if there really is a God. I, however, have found that the more I learn about the rules, guidelines, what have you, that I believe came from God, I get to know him better. I feel a relationship forming that is almost conversational, a friendship. There are plenty of naysayers who believe I am deluding myself...justifying my obedience. But, I cannot argue that intense feeling of love I get when I do the right thing, nor can I ignore the feeling of emptyness when I fail to do what is asked of me. Even if I "get my way", I begin to feel a little more empty. Some have stated I am brainwashed to feel this way, and that will "go away" if I let myself free from the grips of my religion, but I truly feel that the only thing that will go away is the companionship of the spirit, and this I cannot argue. Logic defies it, but the feelings are there.

By the way, if you really want to avoid brainwashing...don't avoid church, avoid television and media, you'll be surprised at how many of your own thoughts you start to have when you turn off the idiot box. Take a marketing class if you don't believe me. I promise, I got my degree in it...after classes about how to make people do what you want them to do, feel how you want them to feel via media, I turned off the TV. Too many say, "Oh, I couldn't live without that!" Yes, you'll feel that way for about a week...the same amount of time it takes to get over an addiction. Hmmmm.

Detour

Ok, not really a detour persay. Every month we get the Ensign and usually, I take the time to read them, as they are chock full of wonderful inspiration that isn't written in a bunch of "art thous" and "wo, wo unto me"s. Not that I mind old English, in fact I quite enjoy it; however, after reading in scripture for a few days, you can fly through the Ensign get lots of good out of it, even a few shed tears.

The August Ensign has already come, and it came with perfect timing.

The Friend (a children's magazine from our church) also came. We (the kids & I) had been struggling with the give & take of the parent/ child relationship. I wanted them to give in a little more, actually. So, I was pleased as I read article after article to the children on obedience, and I made a comment to Z about how the Lord must be trying to tell one of us something (hint, hint, obey!). Little did I know that, that evening, I would open the Ensign to find article after article about being an adult who had an eternal focus, saw the big picture, and taught with love, not coersion. So, the Lord was trying to tell one of us something: Me. To obey HIS words. To teach with love & understanding. Yes, I was to learn a lot over the next little while. I didn't write until today because I was busy putting what I was learning to the test. I'm amazed at how little changes in me can make huge changes in our family.

2 Nephi 9 or SMILE!

Remembering that this scripture had such simple meaning to me as a youth made me smile, smile at my naivete. I used to read over this & the only thing I ever got from it was:
39 O, my beloved brethren, remember the awfulness in transgressing against that Holy God, and also the awfulness of yielding to the enticings of that cunning one. Remember, to be carnally–minded is death, and to be spiritually–minded is life eternal.--smile

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 9:39)

Now, I read it and don't know where to start. Given, that phrase has all but changed me from a pessimistic, sarcastic person to someone with hope, who attempts (and usually can) see the good coming out of things. This change was no small feat. Speaking of point of view, I found another verse in this chapter that made me think:
20 O how great the holiness of our God! For he knoweth all things, and there is not anything save he knows it.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 9:20)

A wee bit of that new-fangled quantum physics here? Hmmm? Maybe not, but this is my blog & I can think whatever I want. My thoughts are not canonized. For future reference, the theory I'm speaking of is one that states that what you observe is what is real, since at the sub-atomic level, everything is the same.

However, there is also a warning with this scripture, and I think it's a good one, reminding us that we need to be listening to our God, however it is he speaks to us, and not assuming we know how things will come about based on our studies. God, or the world around us, does give us what we seek...just not always how we envisioned it happening. When they are learned they think they are wise, and they hearken not unto the counsel of God, for they set it aside, supposing they know of themselves, wherefore, their wisdom is foolishness and it profiteth them not.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 9:28)

Another thing that jumped out at me was the high importance of baptism. Really, baptism by immerssion is not just a suggestion, or an old ritual, it is three things: a commandment, a covenant, and an ordinance. Many things God gives us are one or the other of these, but baptism by immerssion (as Christ was baptized, our perfect example) is really utmost. 23 And he commandeth all men that they must repent, and be baptized in his name, having perfect faith in the Holy One of Israel, or they cannot be saved in the kingdom of God.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 9:23)

2 Nephi 8

I've had this dilemma lately: buy "better" food (organic, local, etc) or buy cheaper food? After much research, (which, if you know me, you know that I research a lot before making a decision), I've concluded a few things.
#1. Better is not always more expensive if you know where to look. The farm co-op we are a part of is supplying us with wonderful, organic produce for a fraction of the cost at the stores (in fact, it's less than traditional(?) vegetables there, too). The farmer's market is another example of better being cheaper. Grains, though not grown locally, are cheaper when bought in their whole form & processed at home. Upicks provide fruit I can pick & can myself for less than store cost and 100-fold in taste.

#2. About the other foods I buy; convenience items, milk, cheeses, meats. These are more expensive if purchased from a local source. So, I wonder, should I buy them & support ALL local foods? Or, is there something I'm missing? Local, small farms are usually "cruelty free" (yeah, like chopping a chicken's head off at any time in their life is free of cruelty as long as they lived a good life...hmmm?) and they use organic resources.

However (since I'm not for pushing complete veganism) I wonder if this cost is worth it. Yes, it tastes better, there is higher nutrition, but today's scripture study had me wondering something else: What about those who have NO nutrition? I'm not talking about the kids at the soup kitchen on the corner, they're getting help, but those who are literally starving to death? Is the better "taste" of my food so important, when they are getting none? Is a miniscule increase in minerals & vitamins in my food worth it, when they are getting NONE?

What if I pocketed those extra dollars each year, and then sent them to a better cause? I calculated today that by saving $3/gallon on milk alone, (by not buying organic) given we drink 2 gallons a week, I could be sending $312/year worth of food to a starving child somewhere. I read that in those countries, kids are living on less than a dollar a day (if they are living at all), so just by giving up my extra milk money, I can feed another person for a whole YEAR. And feed them well. The scripture that got me on this was
11 Therefore, the redeemed of the Lord shall return, and come with singing unto Zion; and everlasting joy and holiness shall be upon their heads; and they shall obtain gladness and joy; sorrow and mourning shall flee away.
12 I am he; yea, I am he that comforteth you. Behold, who art thou, that thou shouldst be afraid of man, who shall die, and of the son of man, who shall be made like unto grass?
13 And forgettest the Lord thy maker, that hath stretched forth the heavens, and laid the foundations of the earth, and hast feared continually every day, because of the fury of the oppressor, as if he were ready to destroy? And where is the fury of the oppressor?
14 The captive exile hasteneth, that he may be loosed, and that he should not die in the pit, nor that his bread should fail.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 8:11 - 14)

At first, I was rejoicing that the suffering would not suffer...but then, it came--will he really lift up all the suffering, or is it up to us? Just a thought.

A Day of Holy Hymning

It may be that I really enjoy hymns, or it may be that whoever picks the hymns each Sunday is very inspired, or maybe it's both...either way, I love the songs we sing each Sunday. I love how they fit into what I'm thinking, and how they lift me up. Today we sang Come, Come Ye Saints and I thought of the line, "Why should we think, to earn a great reward, if we now, shun the fight?" all afternoon. I thought of how it applies to so many things: child rearing, health, friendships, marriage. I don't think I need to give examples.

2 Nephi 7

A short chapter, but a good one. It seemed like quite the rebuke, and I began to wonder, "Do I ever do this? Do I ever blame God for deserting me?"
YEA, for thus saith the Lord: Have I put thee away, or have I cast thee off forever? For thus saith the Lord: Where is the bill of your mother's divorcement? To whom have I put thee away, or to which of my creditors have I sold you? Yea, to whom have I sold you? Behold, for your iniquities have ye sold yourselves, and for your transgressions is your mother put away.
2 Wherefore, when I came, there was no man; when I called, yea, there was none to answer.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 7:1 - 2)

I was reading another book the other day (I think I start too many of my sentences this way, I've got to come up with another way to say, "All I do is read."), and it was stating that we as mortals have such a limited view that we say things like "The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh away" when in reality, the Lord is always giving. We just don't see it. When bad things happen to us, we exclaim, "Why ME?!" instead of "What may come of this?"

I'm not saying I'm not guilty of it, I do it as well, but I took the challenge the (book/website...where was it?) gave to look back on things that seemed horrible at the time, and to try to see what good things have come from them. A few examples:

#1. I HATED the missionary idea. I mean, c'mon, all of my friends were leaving me for 2 years (I had few female friends), even the cute ones. I cried a lot, but then, one sunny day, a man who had returned from his mission entered the picture (Stephen)...would I have given him the time of day had all my friends been in town? No. Would he be who he is today without his mission. NO (at least according to his mother). This is a small example (but big in the future it led to!).

#2. Bigger example. My birth experience with Z. The only way I can describe it is to say that from 36 weeks til his 1st birthday, I was a wreck. Physically, emotionally, spiritually. My memories of that time are bitter sweet. I'm sad that I wasn't my best for his first year, but I've learned a lot. The biggest blessing that came from this trial has been that I've had more children. Huh? Yeah, OK, let me explain.

I never intended to have many children. I was thinking, ummm, one. I didn't like the idea of a big family. I wanted to work, to focus what energy I had left on my one. God knew what I didn't. The harder you have to work for something, the more important it is to you. Z. was born via emergency c-section. He was tiny. 4 lbs. 15.5 oz. Nurses joked that the weighing nurse should have put her finger on the scale to give him that 1/2 oz. I didn't find it funny. Not much was funny. I felt so cheated that I didn't get my "natural birth", my perfect birth. I was sure (where was my brain?) that everyone was out to get me.
Enter in some free time at school. I found out that despite what my doctor had said about maybe not wanting to do that again (pregnancy, I mean, plus if I did, a planned c-section, yuck!), it was possible that I could try again and not have another c-section. I had the perfect excuse to stick to one child, and I decided (in my slightly altered frame of mind, but thank God!) that I would try again! I would deliver this time! 22 months later: enter C. She's perfect, three days early, and the birth was almost natural...I "gave in" and had an epidural (that didn't take all the way, bummer) after a full day (plus some) of labor. So, my brain says, "OK, next time, we're doing this without the epidural."

I'm looking back on all this and laughing, because this really was my thought process. I wanted to have the perfect birth, I felt like I could control that. Anyhow, now I have three, and none of the births have been perfect, but to me, those kids are. I really doubt that my "normal" frame of mind before having Z. would have resulted in me having these three. I've grown up a little, and I now see that they are my life. I could in no way see this from where I was standing the day Z. was born.

#3...I couldn't decide which example to use here. It's late, I'm tired, and I promised I'd get sleep today. No more midnights.

My point is that the Lord doesn't actually desert us. In fact, he knows when it just gets SO hard that we have to blame someone. He takes it. He loves us that much. Think of the last time (if you have children) one of your (small) toddlers got hurt. Don't they always blame you? Why didn't you catch me? Even if they ran into the wall at full speed (don't laugh, they do this!), they turn around and look at you like, "Why did you do that?" God is like that. He's watching, cringing, squeezing his hands together so as not to hold us very still and keep us from doing anything stupid.

2 Nephi 5, 6

I wanted to break out into song while reading this chapter. I wanted to sing the song about George Washington having the chance to be king, but realizing that a democracy is what was needed in order for people to be able to really use their agency. To be at their best, people need to be able to try and to make mistakes, to speak up about how they want to be ruled. Now, I've never lived under the rule of a king, but given what I've read, it can be pretty dreadful (of course there are good kings & bad kings, but I digress). It amazed me that Nephi, after coming from Jerusalem would want this to be a democracy (more theocracy, it seemed, but closer to democracy than a dictatorship) in the following:
18 And it came to pass that they would that I should be their king. But I, Nephi, was desirous that they should have no king; nevertheless, I did for them according to that which was in my power.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 5:18)

Also, in
16 And I, Nephi, did build a temple; and I did construct it after the manner of the temple of Solomon save it were not built of so many precious things; for they were not to be found upon the land, wherefore, it could not be built like unto Solomon's temple. But the manner of the construction was like unto the temple of Solomon; and the workmanship thereof was exceedingly fine.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 5:16)

I was touched by the idea that they did the best they could with what was available to please the Lord. They put quality into it, time, energy, effort, not just jewels & money.



24 And because of their cursing which was upon them they did become an idle people, full of mischief and subtlety, and did seek in the wilderness for beasts of prey.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 5:24)

Did they become idle because of the curse, or vice versa? Any thoughts on this?

And it came to pass that the Lord God said unto me: Make other plates; and thou shalt engraven many things upon them which are good in my sight, for the profit of thy people.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 5:30)

And God said, "Get a blog!" Considering how hard it must have been to engrave each word (think, no back space, hammer, chisel, oops--metal too soft there...) we really shouldn't have any trouble recording our impressions & spiritual thought process nowadays.

32 And I engraved that which is pleasing unto God. And if my people are pleased with the things of God they will be pleased with mine engravings which are upon these plates.
(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 5:32)

So, if we're not too impressed with his writings, we must not be acting as though we are too impressed with God, yes? Hmmm.




7 And kings shall be thy nursing fathers, and their queens thy nursing mothers; they shall bow down to thee with their faces towards the earth, and lick up the dust of thy feet; and thou shalt know that I am the Lord; for they shall not be ashamed that wait for me.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 6:7)

A totally different thought here (I've heard different interpretations of this) but really, the real "rulers" (kings & queens?) are those influencing the next generation to follow God.

17 But thus saith the Lord: Even the captives of the mighty shall be taken away, and the prey of the terrible shall be delivered; for the Mighty God shall deliver his covenant people. For thus saith the Lord: I will contend with them that contendeth with thee—

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 6:17)

I love that last line. Now to make sure that I'm actually on the Lord's side!

2 Nephi 4.

Wow. This chapter was chock full of wonderful things to ponder.I found goal #2...use my laboring time (like sweeping, folding clothes, etc) to ponder the things of the Lord.

Two sections I really enjoyed:
17 Nevertheless, notwithstanding the great goodness of the Lord, in showing me his great and marvelous works, my heart exclaimeth: O wretched man that I am! Yea, my heart sorroweth because of my flesh; my soul grieveth because of mine iniquities.
18 I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily beset me.
19 And when I desire to rejoice, my heart groaneth because of my sins; nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 4:17 - 19)

26 O then, if I have seen so great things, if the Lord in his condescension unto the children of men hath visited men in so much mercy, why should my heart weep and my soul linger in the valley of sorrow, and my flesh waste away, and my strength slacken, because of mine afflictions?
27 And why should I yield to sin, because of my flesh? Yea, why should I give way to temptations, that the evil one have place in my heart to destroy my peace and afflict my soul? Why am I angry because of mine enemy?
28 Awake, my soul! No longer droop in sin. Rejoice, O my heart, and give place no more for the enemy of my soul.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 4:26 - 28)

Why did I love these? Well first it really supported other things I've been reading about moving on despite our weaknesses, to not beat ourselves up, but to repent and try again. Also, to look at terrible things that happen as a possible passageway for blessings I may not know I need, or things I need to learn before moving on in my life.

On the part of re-finding me (see first post here) I decided that although I really dislike the idea of the kids getting television, that one movie in the morning while I run is not going to ruin them forever. Moderation. Sanity. My health. Of course as they get a little older it won't be as much of an issue, because I can tell them to work on their personal school work rather than having to entertain, and I don't think it'll be that long til that's possible (Z could now, we're just waiting on C, and well, P sits and watches me while in her swing. No TV for her yet. Nope.

So far, so good.

Well, today isn't over yet, but I have other things to do and read, so I'm doing this now. I have decided that my biggest obstacle is obedience to the laws of God. Not that I am defiant in any way, but that I really drag my feet when it comes to walking the walk, despite the idea that I can talk the talk for hours. I also came to the realization that I frequently expect my children to obey me quickly, to do as I say, to be, well, obedient. But, as I stated earlier, they learn well from example, and I can bet that they notice when I'm not doing all I've been told to do!! I did, however, talk to Z about God's hand in our lives, and he discussed with me how when he is angry, he doesn't really want to get over it. He likes being angry, and so my suggestion to him to pray to get over his anger kind of upsets him more. I can relate, as I know I'm bringing it up at the wrong time. I should not point out his anger while he's angry. That's like telling someone who is overweight that the brownie they are holding in their hand is part of the problem, and we all know how that goes over.

2 Nephi 1, 2, and part of 3

I'm starting in 2 Nephi (this is in the Book of Mormon, for those not familiar) for a number of reasons. First, Stephen and I are reading the Old Testament together, and I don't want to read the same thing twice in the same day (or week). Second, I've read 1 Nephi so many times, I could quote it, and I feel like if I could just get past it, I could really get some momentum. So, I'm jumping past it, and I'll read it at the end. Maybe it'll be even better after having read the whole book...kind of like watching "The Sixth Sense" twice. Then again, maybe not. We'll see.

Now, as for what I read today, let me quote a bit, and then I'll add my comments.
1 AND now it came to pass that after I, Nephi, had made an end of teaching my brethren, our father, Lehi, also spake many things unto them, and rehearsed unto them, how great things the Lord had done for them in bringing them out of the land of Jerusalem.
2 And he spake unto them concerning their rebellions upon the waters, and the mercies of God in sparing their lives, that they were not swallowed up in the sea.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 1:1 - 2)

See that red highlighting there? Those words caught my attention. I always read while thinking of my children, and it occured to me that I have not been pointing out our blessings to the children. There have been so many times that good has come from a family prayer, or from a fast, and Stephen and I will talk about it later, but after the kids are in bed. We rarely take the time to say, "Look, we prayed about this, and this is how that prayer was answered, or at least it seems that way to us." It's time to follow through. It's time to point out when God has stuck his hand right in front of us and yanked us to high ground. These kids need to know. And we can't wait to tell them when they are in their teens. It'll be too late. No, I have to start today. That will be goal #1 (see running list of goals at the side). Amazing, one verse into this and I have my first goal. See, this is why I don't study the scriptures, it gives me too much to work on! (Kidding...but only slightly).

15 But behold, the Lord hath redeemed my soul from hell; I have beheld his glory, and I am encircled about eternally in the arms of his love.
16 And I desire that ye should remember to observe the statutes and the judgments of the Lord; behold, this hath been the anxiety of my soul from the beginning.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 1:15 - 16)

Yikes! He took the words out of my mouth. Reading this verse takes me back to the days that each of my children were born. I can remember holding them in my arms those very first moments and thinking, "How on earth am I going to teach you everything you need to know?" I think anxiety is putting it lightly. Try outright panic.

19 O my sons, that these things might not come upon you, but that ye might be a choice and a favored people of the Lord. But behold, his will be done; for his ways are righteousness forever.
20 And he hath said that: Inasmuch as ye shall keep my commandments ye shall prosper in the land; but inasmuch as ye will not keep my commandments ye shall be cut off from my presence.
21 And now that my soul might have joy in you, and that my heart might leave this world with gladness because of you, that I might not be brought down with grief and sorrow to the grave, arise from the dust, my sons, and be men, and be determined in one mind and in one heart, united in all things, that ye may not come down into captivity;

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 1:19 - 21)

Honestly, I'm not seeing how prospering in the land is the natural opposite of being cut off from God's presence. Do we have to be IN his presence to prosper in the land? What does this really mean?

1 AND now, Jacob, I speak unto you: Thou art my first–born in the days of my tribulation in the wilderness. And behold, in thy childhood thou hast suffered afflictions and much sorrow, because of the rudeness of thy brethren.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 2:1)

I have to admit, I found this line funny...if we get to start each section of our lives with our firstborns in the____, we'd have our first-born in Idaho, our first-born in Utah, and our first-born in Indiana. So, C, sweetie, you aren't the second child! No! You are the first-born in Utah. I'm nervous that we'd have three first-borns, however...do you ever read those birth order things? About personality characteristics? OK, I'm digressing, but it is something to think about.

OK, so I really just enjoy this whole section whenever I read it, because it makes life make sense to me. I highlighted the item I commented on though.

11 For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so, my first–born in the wilderness, righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad. Wherefore, all things must needs be a compound in one; wherefore, if it should be one body it must needs remain as dead, having no life neither death, nor corruption nor incorruption, happiness nor misery, neither sense nor insensibility.
12 Wherefore, it must needs have been created for a thing of naught; wherefore there would have been no purpose in the end of its creation. Wherefore, this thing must needs destroy the wisdom of God and his eternal purposes, and also the power, and the mercy, and the justice of God.
13 And if ye shall say there is no law, ye shall also say there is no sin. If ye shall say there is no sin, ye shall also say there is no righteousness. And if there be no righteousness there be no happiness. And if there be no righteousness nor happiness there be no punishment nor misery. And if these things are not there is no God. And if there is no God we are not, neither the earth; for there could have been no creation of things, neither to act nor to be acted upon; wherefore, all things must have vanished away.
14 And now, my sons, I speak unto you these things for your profit and learning; for there is a God, and he hath created all things, both the heavens and the earth, and all things that in them are, both things to act and things to be acted upon.
15 And to bring about his eternal purposes in the end of man, after he had created our first parents, and the beasts of the field and the fowls of the air, and in fine, all things which are created, it must needs be that there was an opposition; even the forbidden fruit in opposition to the tree of life; the one being sweet and the other bitter.
16 Wherefore, the Lord God gave unto man that he should act for himself. Wherefore, man could not act for himself save it should be that he was enticed by the one or the other.
17 And I, Lehi, according to the things which I have read, must needs suppose that an angel of God, according to that which is written, had fallen from heaven; wherefore, he became a devil, having sought that which was evil before God.
18 And because he had fallen from heaven, and had become miserable forever, he sought also the misery of all mankind. Wherefore, he said unto Eve, yea, even that old serpent, who is the devil, who is the father of all lies, wherefore he said: Partake of the forbidden fruit, and ye shall not die, but ye shall be as God, knowing good and evil.
19 And after Adam and Eve had partaken of the forbidden fruit they were driven out of the garden of Eden, to till the earth.
20 And they have brought forth children; yea, even the family of all the earth.
21 And the days of the children of men were prolonged, according to the will of God, that they might repent while in the flesh; wherefore, their state became a state of probation, and their time was lengthened, according to the commandments which the Lord God gave unto the children of men. For he gave commandment that all men must repent; for he showed unto all men that they were lost, because of the transgression of their parents.

Is this why people lived longer? Is this what this is saying?

22 And now, behold, if Adam had not transgressed he would not have fallen, but he would have remained in the garden of Eden. And all things which were created must have remained in the same state in which they were after they were created; and they must have remained forever, and had no end.
23 And they would have had no children; wherefore they would have remained in a state of innocence, having no joy, for they knew no misery; doing no good, for they knew no sin.
24 But behold, all things have been done in the wisdom of him who knoweth all things.
25 Adam fell that men might be; and men are, that they might have joy.
26 And the Messiah cometh in the fulness of time, that he may redeem the children of men from the fall. And because that they are redeemed from the fall they have become free forever, knowing good from evil; to act for themselves and not to be acted upon, save it be by the punishment of the law at the great and last day, according to the commandments which God hath given.
27 Wherefore, men are free according to the flesh; and all things are given them which are expedient unto man. And they are free to choose liberty and eternal life, through the great Mediator of all men, or to choose captivity and death, according to the captivity and power of the devil; for he seeketh that all men might be miserable like unto himself.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 2:11 - 27)

1 AND now I speak unto you, Joseph, my last–born. Thou wast born in the wilderness of mine afflictions; yea, in the days of my greatest sorrow did thy mother bear thee.

(Book of Mormon | 2 Nephi 3:1)

All I could think when I read this was that if Lehi's sorrows were great, then Sariah's were mighty hefty. Can you imagine the emotional turmoil of pregnancy while traveling in the wilderness? It's bad enough traveling in the city. For some reason, I just really felt for her, and it made me feel a little better. Like I'd kind of been a wimp, but that I could move on.